a whole lotta sentiments

i'm finally back. i can't hate on my server for shuttin' me down. if anything they've been really good to me. for the past 3 months, i've gone over my 15 gig bandwidth limit without them shutting me down totally. but for november, i got called out. i was more than double my 15 gig limit before they shut me down.
so now i'm forced to make my playlist smaller, cuz that's what's rapidly killing butcheee.com bandwidth. so expect only 5- 8 songs at a time. sorry. you guys just love music as much as i do. but butcheee.com's gotta live.

anyhoo, it's good to be back. i can't front... life has been great lately (minus the whole butcheee.com shutdown). it's christmas time, worklife is slowly grinding down to a nice holiday halt, and i'm heading to Vancity in a week for a mini vacation before my vacation.

and what else? well... major decisions have been made regarding my future. it's gonna be a good 2006 and beyond.
sometimes we spend too much time trying to discern and figure out what to decide. lately i've been reminded that we just have to decide. follow your gut instinct and your heart, ask the right questions, get all perspectives and then decide. and of course, prayer becomes your navigator throughout all of this.
someone reminded me the other day, that God works 'His magic" after you decide. so right now, all i can do is be patient and hopeful. which i must say... isn't a bad place to be in. Cheers!

to the one i’ve loved,

to the one i've loved,

saying goodbye was never easy, but it had to be done.

now that you're gone, i'm already missing the things you would do for me. but i'm especially gonna miss your loyalty. through thick and thin, good and bad... you were always there giving me your best.

it's not easy for me to say this to you, but i've moved on. this new relationship looks very promising and i hope you understand. she's definitely different from you. in the way she thinks, acts and feels. and to be honest with you, she's very, very physically beautiful. i can't help but be attracted to her.

i just want to thank you for all that you've done for me, and all the ways you've made me feel complete. you will never be forgotten, and you'll always have a place in my heart. thank you for the memories and the companionship.

sincerely thankful,
efren baria

p.s. i'm sure you know who she is, because you've seen her before, but here's a picture of her again.

butcheee.com 5.0 is here!

after a too long of a hiatus, butcheee.com is back!

a 'lemony snicket' of unfortunate events over the course of december and january caused the delay and the abrupt stoppage of good ol' butcheee.com. there was no internet at my folk's house over the holidays, and my host at the time went outta business right at the beginning of 2005. top that off with a busy work schedule and lack of free time. so here we are ...

regretfully, butcheee.com 5.0 is not at full strength yet. there is still lots to do with this site, the biggest thing being to actually finish it. there are still a ton of errors and bugs lurking around this site, so please tread carefully.

a big thank you again to 'mr. bramos.net.' as well as a huge apology to all my friends and readers (who i've probably lost over the past month).

please leave a comment and let me know we're still on speaking (and reading) terms. i promise baby, it won't happen again.

here we go again part 2

another test you son of a monkey!

here we go again…

this is a test blog... but now with the new and improved blogger!