holy front thrust kick, Batman!

2005 thus far, has proven to be one of the more interesting chapters in my life. it's been a year of change, challenges, confusion, and realization. the remainder of the year is looking like it will be more of the same. although it sounds pretty negative... it has lead to something very, very positive: GROWTH.

with all this happening, it was very easy for me to fall into a cycle of worrying about myself and being consumed by anxiousness for what God has planned. over the past couple of days, i felt God tellin' it to me straight...

"your prayers for others must be greater than your own prayers for yourself."

definitely a holy front thrust kick to the face. i really try my best to put others before myself. now i really have to learn to put others first, in the place i find most sacred and personally my own. which is in my prayer time. when i can do this, i'll be able to serve them with a greater love than before.

for those who pray, you probably understand that your personal prayer time is really your safe sanctuary. where you can let it all out, and just be real with God. i guess He's been reminding me that we don't just meet up to "discuss" the pressing matters of my life, but rather to show selflessness and true love to those i care about the most, for the people i may not like so much, and to those i may never ever meet.

God? please grant me the grace to treat the concerns and worries of others with greater importance than my own. remind me daily, that You're 'worrying' about my concerns, so that i don't have to.